know whats weird? day by day nth seems to change but slowly everything seems different
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Sunday, August 31, 2008
` 1:15 AM
Welcome to the real world, she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat, take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits and maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world

I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

John Mayer - No Such Thing

i find this song such a strong testament to the life we are leading now.
cheers ppl :)


Sunday, July 13, 2008
` 9:54 PM
have not been updating for so long so here are the events that are happening right now..

been working in a law firm named Chancery LLC at raffles place after my stint at Singtel. its based at chevron house. just opposite UOB Centre. i was introduced by le jia who has a friend, edwin who interns there. they needed people cos they are shifting to china square to relocate their new office. office rent at chevron house apparently increased by 3 folds. my god! the things i learnt there in 1 day thrashed the things i learnt at singtel for the past 4 months! office area is no bigger than 2 living rooms combined. my 3 bosses are top lawyers in their own fields. rich and savvy. one drives a BMW 5 series. one drives a BMW X5. i wouldnt bet against anyone on the amt they earn each month!!

i widen my knowledge everyday as i read many different cases which made me looked with awe that such cases actually exist. the different kinds of cases really opened my eyes and shuddered at the complexity of it. i used to take frequent breaks during singtel days. now the only break i take is lunch break! 1 hr and i try to stuff myself like a pig cos when you work there. you have absolutely no time to eat or munch except to do your own work.

i liked this job very much and although its a short one ( 1 month) and i had to take a wk leave for my orientation camp. it will certainly fulfilling and time seems to fly so quickly. i love the working environment at raffles place. the financial and business heartbeat of singapore. everyone is properly dressed and you get to see many different seemingly incoherent business are in fact entwined to keep the economy going strong.

hmm but on the contrary. sometimes you cant really please everyone around you and its not like you have done something wrong. oh wells. i shouldnt be bothered cos i have done my best and if things dont go the way i hope. then so be it.

anyway that is just a brief updates. pls ask me out for lunch if anyone has time and is dumb enough to come all the way down to raffles place lol! i will be off to orientation camp nxt wk. engine camp. hope it doesnt bore me to death. i wrote this post cos kayan demanded it so there you go kayan!

on a little note. sorry for not talking to you every night as promised. i know i always say "hey talk to you tonight" but it nv happened. hope your not pissed or anything la. haha this entry dedicated to you la :) star of samuel's pathetic blog that no one reads lol :)

i will like to end off with the lyrics of this song by goo goo dolls.
this song is the OST for city of angels. a 1998 film.
the lyrics are simple yet it resonates long in my mind.
meaningful and bittersweet. here goes...

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And i give up forever to touch you, cos i know that you feel me somehow.
your the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and i dont want to go home right now.
and all i can taste is this moment, and all i can breathe is your life.
and sooner or later its over, i just dont want to miss you tonight.

And i dont want the world to see me, cos i dont think that they understand.
when everything is made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am...
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
` 12:02 AM

HAPPINESS

lets talk about happiness. so whats happiness? Wikipedia describes happiness as an emotion associated with feelings ranging from contentment and satisfaction to bliss and intense joy. it is said that 50% of a person's happiness depends on his genes. a further 10-15% comes from variables such as socio-economics status, marital status, health and income. the remaining reasons do not have a discernible cause.

well when a dream comes true, you dont always get the happiness you thought would come with it.
Happiness is not something you can feel every moment of the day.
Happiness comes in small doses, so just be grateful for that.
Its pointless to wish for a big happiness because it wont happen.
perhaps happiness is overrated.

but why ppl still feel unhappy during their pursuit for happiness? you so yearn to be happy and you so want to be happier. the irony is that this hunger and search for happiness is perhaps the reason you often find yourself unhappy.

happiness is so hard to come by, yet when you do find it, it either doesnt last long or it loses its magic after a while.

still, one could argue that happiness would be meaningless if you felt happy all the time. how could you understand happiness unless you have lived through unhappiness and can compare the two?

the trick perhaps is to learn to live for the moment and appreciate what you have.

Its hard to be happy when you are stuck in the past or the future. its hard to be happy when you chase after happiness, forgetting that, hey, it could well be right there, staring at you :)

food for thought.




Saturday, May 03, 2008
` 10:12 PM



I went to catch DHSSE concert over at VCH last night. this was the 1st time i attended as an alumnus. the last time i was inside VCH was when i was secondary 4 which was 5 yrs ago.

then there was the unadorned joy of practising and putting up a stellar performance in front of your friends and family. you just want to give your everything to make that night memorable. well it was a night not to be forgotten then. the audience was special and i really enjoyed myself playing the violin and let the sound resonate amongst the halls. wen jin, wendy, yi qing, zi kai, le jia, en qi, toon li, calvin, kuo ren, wai lee, yan min, xiaoyin, alicia, wan li and me. those were the ppl from my batch.
SE has definitely shaped my life in a way or another

anyway. time has changed. we used to beg ppl to come to our concert. and the seats are always half filled. but the one i attended last night. it was almost full house and when they played CANON IN D MAJOR, streams of audience actually went forward to cheer them and snap pictures of them. i mean we will nv dream of that to happen during our time. time has really changed. the arrangement of pieces arent important yesterday. well at least to me. i felt that the atmosphere was right and how i wish the night will last forever.

we had supper with ms ku after that. she was my conductor and the mentor who taught and helped me attain my grade 8 vln grades. she has been there since SE was formed. an amazing 14 years. after supper at xing wang over at marina square. we took bus 10 home. me le jia yun kuan and alphonsus. talked bout jus everything on the journey home. i liked that.

yesterday made me pick up the numerous classical cds i had and listened to them again. sometimes we need these little events to break away from the boisterous lifestyle and to find our footings again.

this is really a random entry. i didnt want to dwell into things too personal.














SUCCESS IS GETTING WHAT YOU WANT. HAPPINESS IS WANTING WHAT YOU GET.









Wednesday, April 30, 2008
` 11:32 PM








for the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.



Saturday, April 12, 2008
` 1:46 AM

在多几天, 自己的大日子就要来了. 可是, 一点头绪也没有, 真的感到很内疚.
刚开始, 还有一些无厘头的ideas
但时间久了也就提不起勁了
真的好惭愧.

大家都在开chalet, 请很多朋友为他庆祝.
好羡慕喔!
自己可没有那么多朋友!

21岁而已嘛, 没必要那么隆重的啦!
如果我开庆祝会, 不知多少人会出席.
该是廖廖无几吧!

不知不觉已经过了21年了.
感觉自己变老了.
有些事至今还是放不下..

事情已经变了
只剩下最纯真的怀念...

Sunday, March 30, 2008
` 5:36 PM


i had dinner over at old airport road. wanted to try something different after eating at town umpteen times during work.

tables were easy to find surprisingly. i sat at 1 particular table and waited for my food when i began to glance at the family occupy the table beside me. parents with 2 daughters. judging from their attire. working adults and just slightly older than me. and yes quite pretty.

but then again its not the beauty that attracted my attention. its the interaction amongst them that really caught my attention. they were talking and laughing. i guess most probably talking bout the events in their day's work. and the way they talked and giggled as a family put a smile on my face. they are close knited.

i hope when my sister and i grow up. we are able to have such quality time with my parents. so much for the food and the ambience. its the interaction that matters in the end. it stood out amongst the noise in the hawker centre. well at least to me. i treasure kinship as much as anything else. how nice and warm it will feel when after a day's work our family can go out and have dinner and talk bout little thigns that happened on that day. it sure does epitomise what i yearn for in a close knitted family.

and i must say this dream is not far away :)

and this is the quote that got stuck in my head for quite some time. it certainly is true to a certain extent i guess...


被人嘲笑的梦想 , 才有实践的价值 .

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